Showing posts with label David Wagoner. Show all posts
Showing posts with label David Wagoner. Show all posts

Friday, December 8, 2023

So Many Stars (Friction Farm)

Lovely but busy afternoon!  Rob ended up having today off (he almost always works Fridays) and Chico wanted to take him out to breakfast or lunch... while I hoped he would accompany me to see Waitress: The Musical in the movie theater (truly excellent!)... so we combined plans and went to our friendly neighborhood Cinemark, followed by linner (what is a 4 p.m. meal called, anyway?) at a new-to-us Peruvian restaurant (so many Yums... 😛)

The next New Moon is Tuesday, December 12.  Hoping I can find someplace dark, so I can view as many stars as possible.. 🌟

I originally made this mix *tape* in 1996, then recycled on CD in 2015, now taking on a new life as a Spotify playlist in 2023. I assure you that, although the mood starts out bleak, it actually was made very thoughtfully and deliberately, following an arc of melancholy to hope to redemption.  Had to substitute a few songs that weren't available from the original playlist 30 years ago, but it retains the intent.  I'm going to curl up on the couch and test-drive it now.  Hope you enjoy and, if you listen, let me know what you think...💔💖

SONG
So Many Stars by Friction Farm


It's hopeless, the stars, the books 
about stars, they can't help themselves 
and how could you not love them for it 
here in the new week with animals 
burying food and everything outlined 
in cold and even friends, it's hopeless, 
this mess, this season, all that 
is lost and tickets and strangers, 
what can I say, only sitting here 
on this dark bench waiting for what 
I don't know, I want this world 
to remain with me, this holy tumult, 
which does not know it loves me 
and you, friends, spectacular driveways, 
an orange, the vanishing year.


Sincerely, the Sky by David Hernandez

Yes, I see you down there
looking up into my vastness.

What are you hoping
to find on my vacant face,

there within the margins
of telephone wires?

You should know I am only
bright blue now because of physics:

molecules break and scatter
my light from the sun

more than any other color.
You know my variations—

azure at noon, navy by midnight.
How often I find you

then on your patio, pajamaed
and distressed, head thrown

back so your eyes can pick apart
not the darker version of myself

but the carousel of stars.
To you I am merely background.

You barely hear my voice.
Remember I am most vibrant

when air breaks my light.
Do something with your brokenness.


The Silence of the Stars by David Wagoner

When Laurens van der Post one night
In the Kalihari Desert told the Bushmen
He couldn't hear the stars
Singing, they didn't believe him.  They looked at him,
Half-smiling.  They examined his face
To see whether he was joking
Or deceiving them.  Then two of those small men
Who plant nothing, who have almost
Nothing to hunt, who live
On almost nothing, and with no one
But themselves, led him away
From the crackling thorn-scrub fire
And stood with him under the night sky
And listened.  One of them whispered,
Do you not hear them now?
And van der Post listened, not wanting
To disbelieve, but had to answer,
No.  They walked him slowly
Like a sick man to the small dim
Circle of firelight and told him
They were terribly sorry,
And he felt even sorrier
For himself and blamed his ancestors
For their strange loss of hearing,
Which was his loss now.  On some clear nights
When nearby houses have turned off their televisions,
When the traffic dwindles, when through streets
Are between sirens and the jets overhead
Are between crossings, when the wind
Is hanging fire in the fir trees,
And the long-eared owl in the neighboring grove
Between calls is regarding his own darkness,
I look at the stars again as I first did
To school myself in the names of constellations
And remember my first sense of their terrible distance,
I can still hear what I thought
At the edge of silence were the inside jokes
Of my heartbeat, my arterial traffic,
The C above high C of my inner ear, myself
Tunelessly humming, but now I know what they are:
My fair share of the music of the spheres
And clusters of ripening stars,
Of the songs from the throats of the old gods
Still tending even tone-deaf creatures
Through their exiles in the desert.

QUOTE:  “Everyone you love, everyone you know, everyone you ever heard of, every human being who ever was, lived out their lives is but a mote suspended in a sunbeam... a lonely speck in the great enveloping cosmic dark.” ~ Carl Sagan

“When he shall die, take him and cut him out in little stars, and he will make the face of heaven so fine that all the world will be in love with night and pay no worship to the garish sun.” ~ William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet

"The Moon.  Pause here.  You are deep in the heart of the darkest nights. The world is hushed.  The trees are dwelling in their roots, and the earth's small creatures have gone to ground.  Turn inward and listen to the stories of your deepest self, allowing The Moon to illuminate your hidden spaces." ~ Wild Wisdom calendar, December, The Moon

Wednesday, October 3, 2007

Deadline (David LaMotte)

A friend recently pointed out that I live a "deadline-driven life" - unfortunately, I'll have to own that reality, although I'm more conscious of it now and making pro-active strides to do things differently over the next few months. Right now I feel as if I only have two speeds: fast-forward and coma - wish me luck...

P.S. David LaMotte is based on the Asheville, North Carolina area and I've had the pleasure of hosting him (twice) in a house concert - he is an amazing singer/songwriter with a gentle spirit, a wise soul and gloriously long hair. One of my favorite memories is soaking in our backyard jacuzzi under a starry sky after a show, engaged in meaningful conversation, while savoring slices of M's decadent homemade chocolate cake - to quote Joan Baez, "speaking strictly for me, we both could have died then and there"... :-)

SONG: Deadline by David LaMotte

BOOK: Awaken Your Strongest Self by Neil A. Fiore

POEM: Getting There by David Wagoner

You take a final step and, look, suddenly

You're there. You've arrived
At the one place all your drudgery was aimed for:
This common ground
Where you stretch out, pressing your cheek to sandstone.
What did you want

To be? You'll remember soon. You feel like tinder
Under a burning glass,

A luminous point of change. The sky is pulsing
Against the cracked horizon,
Holding it firm till the arrival of stars
In time with your heartbeats.
Like wind etching rock, you've made a lasting impression
On the self you were
By having come all this way through all this welter
Under your own power,
Though your traces on a map would make an unpromising
Meandering lifeline.

What have you learned so far? You'll find out later,

Telling it haltingly
Like a dream, that lost traveler's dream
Under the last hill
Where through the night you'll take your time out of mind
To unburden yourself
Of elements along elementary paths
By the break of morning.

You've earned this worn-down, hard, incredible sight

Called Here and Now.
Now, what you make of it means everything,
Means starting over:
The life in your hands is neither here nor there
But getting there,
So you're standing again and breathing, beginning another
Journey without regret
Forever, being your own unpeaceable kingdom,
The end of endings.

QUOTE: "I love deadlines. I especially like the whooshing sound they make as they go flying by." ~ Douglas Adams