Showing posts with label Antonio Machado. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Antonio Machado. Show all posts

Wednesday, October 7, 2020

The Long Way Home (Mary Chapin Carpenter)

I had been vowing to get back into my walking routine (long-overdue and much-missed) and yesterday was that day.  Woke up with twitchy legs (always a good sign), drank a giant glass of water, laced up my New Balances, and walked out my front door... whereupon Rain King by Counting Crows came on my Pandora, and a giant bird flew across my line of vision, surely a sign from The Universe:

When I think of heaven
Deliver me in a black-winged bird
I think of flying down into a sea of pens and feathers
And all other instruments of faith and sex and god

I started out entirely too fast, but then got into my groove.  Other than a few walks with my son Rob at his place, it had been months since I'd seriously gotten out for a trek around the complex, and definitely not since they re-opened the golf course.  Such fond memories of taking advantage of all the winding paths throughout where now, again, I'm restricted to the outskirts.  It was sweet, though... beautiful morning, out the door by 9:15, wonderful and diverse music to accompany.  I finally broke down and paid the $5 a month (price of a Starbucks Matcha Green Tea Latte with coconut milk) Pandora charges to go ad-free, plus unlimited skips (meaning, no more spooky Halloween soundtrack at dusk).  Gamechanger!

The route I chose took me 45 minutes, but I can add on bits and pieces throughout the complex to eventually get myself up to an hour.  I thought about structuring a walking schedule but, because I love, and missed, it so much, I'm just going to plan on every day, weather-permitting.  In South Florida, one has to be that flexible.

Did I say that I feel great?!?... :-)

P.S.  Day Two in the books, 45 minutes again; I count time, not distance.  I have always been a fast walker, and now my goal is to lengthen my stride, which provides a nice stretch throughout the route.




Where am I going? I'm going
out, out for a walk. I don't
know where except outside.
Outside argument, out beyond
wallpapered walls, outside
wherever it is where nobody
ever imagines. Beyond where
computers circumvent emotion,
where somebody shorted specs
for rivets for airframes on
today's flights. I'm taking off
on my own two feet. I'm going
to clear my head, to watch
mares'-tails instead of TV,
to listen to trees and silence,
to see if I can still breathe.
I'm going to be alone with
myself, to feel how it feels
to embrace what my feet
tell my head, what wind says
in my good ear. I mean to let
myself be embraced, to let go
feeling so centripetally old.
Do I know where I'm going?
I don't. How long or far
I have no idea. No map. I
said I was going to take
a walk. When I'll be back
I'm not going to say.

QUOTE:  "
Travelers, there is no path, paths are made by walking." ~ Antonio Machado

Thursday, April 17, 2008

Set the Controls for the Heart of the Sun (Pink Floyd)

Oh my god, I love it when worlds collide - check out my Free Will Astrology Leo Horoscope for the week of April 17, 2008!!!!

This would be a perfect time for you to write your ultimate personal manifesto. I'm talking about composing a sweeping statement of the core ideas that fuel your lust for life. To get you in the mood, take a look at the following lyrics from Danny Schmidt's song "Company of Friends." "I believe in restless hunger . . . I believe in private thunder . . . I believe in inspiration . . . I believe in slow creation . . . I believe in lips on ears . . . I believe in being wrong . . . I believe in contradiction . . . I believe in living smitten . . . I believe our book is written by our company of friends."

What are the odds, I ask you? - then again, I know I'm living right when it all falls into place like this... :-)

I love my chaotic life - sure, there are dark places which sometimes consume and threaten to drive me to roly-poly mode. Fall down, brush it off, get back up - it can be a struggle, but I force myself to overcome.

I got home from work yesterday and had a lovely walk/chat with M - we took the dog out for another half-block and then I came inside and made a dinner of scrambled eggs with turkey and pepperjack cheese. Returned a few phone calls and then my daughter came over (with a friend) to finish up a Road Trip mix I was helping her with (for her upcoming Key West weekend) - we had a blast finalizing and ordering the selections, and choosing just the right photo for the accompanying cover. Her friend C also provided me with an amazing neck and shoulder rub as I worked at the computer - he and I then got into a passionate but friendly political discussion...

My gardenia bush is blooming like crazy and, before I got in the car this morning, I picked some blossoms for the 90-year-old mother of the man I work for - she is fairly housebound, these are her favorite flowers and I try to bring her some on a regular basis. I fill a bowl with water, arrange the blossoms and place it at the table where she spends a good bit of her day in a wheelchair, taking her meals and reading the newspaper - every single time I set the bowl down and tell V good morning, she says, "thank you - the smell is intoxicating!".

Oh, and on the way to the office, I began test-driving the aforementioned mix - you can bet that after the first three selections (whereupon I pulled into the driveway) of Everyday is a Winding Road by Sheryl Crow, Shiny Happy People by R.E.M. and Smooth by Carlos Santana/Rob Thomas, I was smiling broadly... :-)

For the most part, I believe each day/hour/minute is a conscious choice - I choose joy...



Last night as I was sleeping,
I dreamt - marvellous error! -
that a spring was breaking
out in my heart
I said: Along which secret aqueduct
Oh water, are you coming to me,
water of a new life
that I have never drunk?

Last night as I was sleeping,
I dreamt - marvellous error! -
that I had a beehive
here inside my heart.
And the golden bees
were making white combs
and sweet honey
from my old failures.

Last night as I was sleeping,
I dreamt - marvellous error! -
that a fiery sun was giving
light inside my heart.
It was fiery because I felt,
warmth as from a hearth,
and sun because it gave light
and brought tears to my eyes.

Last night as I was sleeping,
I dreamt - marvellous error! -
That it was God I had
here inside my heart.

QUOTE: "The philosophy of mine earth can be summed up as this: Sunshine creates happiness, and I create myself. Nights are long and life is predominantly good. Wind is refreshing. Tea is wisdom. Do the best you can, and be good to yourself so that you can above all be good to others." ~ Jessi Lane Adams