So... after five days of relationship musings, discussions of crashed hard drives should be the proverbial piece of cake (not wedding), eh? - when last we left our She-ra, I was waiting for my tech guy, who came Saturday morning a week ago, attempted to run CheckDisk with minimal results and then took my tower with him. He installed a replacement this past Tuesday, but he's not been able to recover any data (although he's still trying) - sadly enough, I had never backed up, so I take full responsibility...
A few major things I had been able to recreate or had sent as attachments in the last month so they were retrievable - most everything else was not only irreplaceable but sentimentally dear. At this point, I'm attempting to focus on the bright side of clean slate/starting over - my e-mail is okay, albeit almost 600 messages at this point, since I've not had the time/inclination/energy to deal.
BOOK: Mindfulness in Plain English by Bhante H. Gunaratana
POEM: Buddha's Dogs by Susan Browne
I'm at a day-long meditation retreat, eight hours of watching
In the morning session, I learned to count my thoughts, ten in
of Sancerre, smoked trout with roasted potatoes and baby
wanting, wanting, wanting, wanting, wanting, judgment,
then he bangs the gong for lunch. Whoever, whatever I am is
meditators, and we wobble across the lake like The Night of the
Living Dead.
towards a bench, sit slowly down, and slowly eat my sandwich,
thanking the sourdough, the tuna, the ocean, the boat, the
and the hope of getting through the rest of this day without
Slowly brushing it away, I feel so sad I can hardly stand it, so I
I notice I've been chasing the same thoughts like dogs around
I decide to try lying down meditation, and let myself sleep. The
for the forgiveness meditation, the teacher saying, never put
chasing those dogs around and around in the sun then cloud
QUOTE: "Meditation is acceptance. It is the acceptance of life within us, without us and all around us. Acceptance of life is the beginning of human satisfaction. Transformation of life is the culmination of divine satisfaction. " ~ Sri Chinmoy
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